"I can’t breathe. I have my ID right here. My name is Elijah McClain. That’s my house. I was just going home. I’m an introvert. I’m just different. That’s all. I’m so sorry. I have no gun. I don’t do that stuff. I don’t do any fighting. Why are you attacking me? I don’t even kill flies! I don’t eat meat! But I don’t judge people, I don’t judge people who do eat meat. Forgive me. All I was trying to do was become better. I will do it. I will do anything. Sacrifice my identity, I’ll do it. You all are phenomenal. You are beautiful and I love you. Try to forgive me. I’m a mood Gemini. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Ow, that really hurt. You are all very strong. Teamwork makes the dream work. Oh, I’m sorry I wasn’t trying to do that. I just can’t breathe correctly."
But there will always be people who defend the actions of police and justify acts of white supremacy in the United States and around the world. It's hard to imagine a better world when things are so bleak and bloody. It's hard to imagine justice in a country built on injustice.
I'm not sure how to hope anymore that anything will ever get better. Maybe there will be a lull in tragedies or maybe things will get much worse, but I can't envision this country getting better unless there is a major and consequential event structurally upending the core violence gnawing away at social stability. It feels like a never-ending state of emergency, and I'm skeptical things will get better over time. They'll be transformed, masked, and disguised by increasingly complicated rationalizations, justifications, and dog-whistles, but will they ever really change? Maybe Nietschze was right. It doesn't matter if you go to the future or the past, things wouldn't really be different either way.